Day 5 or 6 of 19

Actually it might be 7...

50% of my office called out sick today.

Someone rear-ended David's Xterra while he was stopped at a stop sign.

We can't find anyone to fix the fireplace.

And it's all ok. Because it's what the world is going to give me right now. So i'll take it.

Although I wish Pandora would throw me a good song every now and again... can't imagine why anyone would pay for this service.

I can't be happy with everything. That would be CRAZY.

Anyway. My cushion related adventures are going well. Mindfulness meditation is a great thing. You just have to invest in the meditation part - well, I have to invest in the meditation part.

My mind is where I go to get away, not where I go to be present. So thats a bit of a switch. But I know how to be present which makes it a little easier. Well, I know how to be present for all the good things, which is where we all start I suppose. I was present while I ate a peanut today.

Yeah, it really is going to get that weird.

I was present while I ate a chocolate covered peanut. It was in the bottom of a dixie cup, and it was blue (cuz you know, it was an M&M). And for those 3 seconds, all that existed was that peanut, and the cup and it's lovely crunchy little sweet adventure. There was nothing in the future, and nothing in the past... I was just there, eating that m&m.
It was nice. I would like to spend more time being present. And in more challenging situations.

Good thing I'm living in Virginia right now.